FRIDAY, AUGUST 22, 2008

When it comes to the moment you start thinking about
What you're doing.
Who you're choosing.
Who you love.
And if it's right,
this can be such a wonderful moment...

but now,
I can't find any 'wonderful moment' between us...
it was there, you know, and I know
but you've made the decision to let go,
for once and forever...
Now, we shall make this clear...

So we meet up,
and you were acting so difficult...
but you called up in the night
and here we are...

Sitting side-by-side, in you car, just like we used to
but now, it's a totally different situation, different feelings

Honestly, when I entered your car, looking at you, my heart was shouting so loud:
'Oh shit!! I missed this guy so much!!'
and I was to break down...
but I know I can't
so I didn't

then we were there talking
started up with asking about your uni application things
and I can see you were crapping
crapping from uni application to your results to your family
and then telling me:
'Sincerely, I don't have the mood to text msg these days, so sometimes I just don't reply msg.'
Oh for goodness sake, stop bullshitting!!
your msg alert have been ringing for a few times that night itself!!

So,
after you've finished crapping
I just go:
'Why did you break up with me?'
and I was pretty sure, I can predict your reaction and answer
as how much I've known you

so....
the same answer
same explanation
you can't even look in my eyes while you were talking to me....
haiz.........sigh

and for real,
I know,
there were girl after you
its the sense we girls have
that is actually unexplainable
but you said there were THREE girls!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!
yes, I'm using burglar words....
and I asked to know the girls name
you refused to tell right??
how bout I tell u
it was her, yes, my friend
that slut!!
again,
WHAT THE FUCK!!
I was so pissed off
so pissed off
no need much explanation
you did it without looking in my eyes
what were you trying to hide??
huh??
don't you have the guts to even look in my eyes??
huh?? my ex-Darlin??

and so,
before I leave
I wish you the very best of luck
on your life and everything awaiting in the future
I hugged you, yes I did
and I turned around, HIT YOU HARD on your left chest
yes I did
I just wanna tell you
'so, you know this is pain!!''

This two weeks of holidays were not supposed to happen like this
You yourself know, how much have I been longed for this two weeks to come
and how much plan have I been working on for these
But then,
you still let go and ended it all
leaving me all alone
miserable and confused
everything straggled up

for how many tears and sadness and mourning I've gone through
I meet you up tonight, with ONE purpose
to make things straight, to make things clear
once and for all

and just like you tell me
life has many chapter
and yes, you were one of the chapters in my life

Chapter One of my romance life
Chapter One that will ends tonight
I'm gonna shut the door behind
keeping our memories behind
keeping the times we had behind
shut the door close
and enter the next door

God knows what is behind the door
but for my own sake
I'm gonna try my best to enter it
with a whole new feeling a whole new smile
I know its hard
real hard
but it has got to be

so
there it goes
End Of Chapter One

Shall we just be friends from now on....
Just like you say,
One who understand you and one who understand me...

sometimes,
fairy tales don't end with a happy endings...
but they say,
All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time...
who knows,
this might be true...
true or not,
we shall just stop and stare..
nop,
proceed and stare...