问自己， 可以别再想了吗？
可以别再伤心了吗？？
可以不要再有期望吗？？？
可以别再伤心了吗？？
可以不要再有期望吗？？？
可以，忘了吗？
可以救救我吗。。。？
Monday, November 17, 2008
Haunt me in my dreams...
MONDAY, NOVEMBER 17, 2008
I woke up, with a sense of fear and emptiness...
for the very first time a dream that had made me feeling so empty and helpless...
I could only see you with my bare eyes... not able to do anything... just feel like breaking down and cry the hell out of my way to wake myself up
And I know I simply cannot see this in reality.
How I wish there's someone I can hug on tight this morning when I wake up.
It felt so awful so awful...
I woke up, with a sense of fear and emptiness...
for the very first time a dream that had made me feeling so empty and helpless...
I could only see you with my bare eyes... not able to do anything... just feel like breaking down and cry the hell out of my way to wake myself up
And I know I simply cannot see this in reality.
How I wish there's someone I can hug on tight this morning when I wake up.
It felt so awful so awful...
Monday, October 6, 2008
SUNDAY, OCTOBER 5, 2008
I feel awful this morning when i woke up
The feeling of leaving
The feeling of losing
The feeling of crying
it all came attacking me
may be I'm too tired
but the memory when the day I first left
It all came back
The scene when you parked your car outside my house
You walked in
Whispered in my ears
And then I see you driving away
It felt just like hell.....
It still, feels like hell.....
whenever i remember it
I feel awful this morning when i woke up
The feeling of leaving
The feeling of losing
The feeling of crying
it all came attacking me
may be I'm too tired
but the memory when the day I first left
It all came back
The scene when you parked your car outside my house
You walked in
Whispered in my ears
And then I see you driving away
It felt just like hell.....
It still, feels like hell.....
whenever i remember it
WEDNESDAY, OCTOBER 1, 2008
Today I went for movies with my family.
Met up Pat, who is working in Nike.
He told me he saw you working, may be at the basement.
I was thinking... no camera fair, then you won't be there, may be.
I walked, alone
and I really saw you, there...
What's wrong??
you can't recognize me??
or you wanna chicken-out this time too??
hmm.....??
"Enjoy yourself back here."
yea, i know
you've told me that,
don't you remember??
you've nothing else to say then...??
Today I went for movies with my family.
Met up Pat, who is working in Nike.
He told me he saw you working, may be at the basement.
I was thinking... no camera fair, then you won't be there, may be.
I walked, alone
and I really saw you, there...
What's wrong??
you can't recognize me??
or you wanna chicken-out this time too??
hmm.....??
"Enjoy yourself back here."
yea, i know
you've told me that,
don't you remember??
you've nothing else to say then...??
Saturday, September 27, 2008
FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 26, 2008
今天回来的路上，下着雨
很大一场雨
天，一直阴昏昏的
自从上次第一次回来 到机场见你那一次
每次回来 都带着很沉很沉的心情
心里 清楚明白 什么都不会发生
可是 总会情不自禁的有所期待
在一起时也是这样
还记得 你曾经说过：‘Actually, better we don’t have expectation. Because it will always lead to a fight, when I don’t know what are you expecting.’
所以其实我有的期待 从来都不曾对你说
也知道 每一次的期待总会带来失望
久而久之 也对失望的感觉 麻木了
这次回来 无别 也想见见你
这 也可能是再一个会以失望收场的期待吧。
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Indulge The Recollection of The Past
Arghh...
I had a real harsh day
I wish I could call up to you like I always do, just to have someone to listen to my problems and give me some comfort and solutions
Just to listen to your voice, to calm myself down
But now,
i can only listen to the recordings you did for me
Listen to your voice, your laughter and your breath
Imagine your smile
Reminiscing the past ...
I had a real harsh day
I wish I could call up to you like I always do, just to have someone to listen to my problems and give me some comfort and solutions
Just to listen to your voice, to calm myself down
But now,
i can only listen to the recordings you did for me
Listen to your voice, your laughter and your breath
Imagine your smile
Reminiscing the past ...
... which had passed for 45 days
fades with the wind... gone within time
fades with the wind... gone within time
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Friday, September 5, 2008
失恋过，才懂得唱情歌。。。
挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底 你能不能收到它
天有点冷 风有点大 城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候令陌生人都还尴尬
昨天远了 明天还长 回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
地址写的是心底 你能不能收到它
天有点冷 风有点大 城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候令陌生人都还尴尬
昨天远了 明天还长 回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
precisely...
Saturday, August 23, 2008
I learn a lot, from [The Five People You Meet In Heaven]
and this is part of it,
here goes...
and this is part of it,
here goes...
Lost love is still love.
It takes a different form, that's all.
You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor.
But, when those senses weaken, another heightens.
Memory.
Memory becomes your partner.
You nuture it,
You hold it.
You dance with it.
Life has to end.
Love doesn't.
It takes a different form, that's all.
You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor.
But, when those senses weaken, another heightens.
Memory.
Memory becomes your partner.
You nuture it,
You hold it.
You dance with it.
Life has to end.
Love doesn't.
And true enough. memory is what's left in me.
Things shall get better I guess,
let's just hold on to it, and things WILL get better.
let's just hold on to it, and things WILL get better.
30th day we broke up
30 days,
a month
enough of mourning
enough of tears
30 days,
a month
enough of mourning
enough of tears
Grace!! get your butt back in action!!
don't let the one who cares down
don't let yourself down
Girls power ROCKS!!! and will still rocks!!
don't let the one who cares down
don't let yourself down
Girls power ROCKS!!! and will still rocks!!
FRIDAY, AUGUST 22, 2008
but now,
I can't find any 'wonderful moment' between us...
it was there, you know, and I know
but you've made the decision to let go,
for once and forever...
Now, we shall make this clear...
So we meet up,
and you were acting so difficult...
but you called up in the night
and here we are...
Sitting side-by-side, in you car, just like we used to
but now, it's a totally different situation, different feelings
Honestly, when I entered your car, looking at you, my heart was shouting so loud:
'Oh shit!! I missed this guy so much!!'
and I was to break down...
but I know I can't
so I didn't
then we were there talking
started up with asking about your uni application things
and I can see you were crapping
crapping from uni application to your results to your family
and then telling me:
'Sincerely, I don't have the mood to text msg these days, so sometimes I just don't reply msg.'
Oh for goodness sake, stop bullshitting!!
your msg alert have been ringing for a few times that night itself!!
So,
after you've finished crapping
I just go:
'Why did you break up with me?'
and I was pretty sure, I can predict your reaction and answer
as how much I've known you
so....
the same answer
same explanation
you can't even look in my eyes while you were talking to me....
haiz.........sigh
and for real,
I know,
there were girl after you
its the sense we girls have
that is actually unexplainable
but you said there were THREE girls!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!
yes, I'm using burglar words....
and I asked to know the girls name
you refused to tell right??
how bout I tell u
it was her, yes, my friend
that slut!!
again,
WHAT THE FUCK!!
I was so pissed off
so pissed off
no need much explanation
you did it without looking in my eyes
what were you trying to hide??
huh??
don't you have the guts to even look in my eyes??
huh?? my ex-Darlin??
and so,
before I leave
I wish you the very best of luck
on your life and everything awaiting in the future
I hugged you, yes I did
and I turned around, HIT YOU HARD on your left chest
yes I did
I just wanna tell you
'so, you know this is pain!!''
This two weeks of holidays were not supposed to happen like this
You yourself know, how much have I been longed for this two weeks to come
and how much plan have I been working on for these
But then,
you still let go and ended it all
leaving me all alone
miserable and confused
everything straggled up
for how many tears and sadness and mourning I've gone through
I meet you up tonight, with ONE purpose
to make things straight, to make things clear
once and for all
and just like you tell me
life has many chapter
and yes, you were one of the chapters in my life
Chapter One of my romance life
Chapter One that will ends tonight
I'm gonna shut the door behind
keeping our memories behind
keeping the times we had behind
shut the door close
and enter the next door
God knows what is behind the door
but for my own sake
I'm gonna try my best to enter it
with a whole new feeling a whole new smile
I know its hard
real hard
but it has got to be
so
there it goes
End Of Chapter One
Shall we just be friends from now on....
Just like you say,
One who understand you and one who understand me...
When it comes to the moment you start thinking about
What you're doing.
Who you're choosing.
Who you love.
And if it's right,
this can be such a wonderful moment...
What you're doing.
Who you're choosing.
Who you love.
And if it's right,
this can be such a wonderful moment...
but now,
I can't find any 'wonderful moment' between us...
it was there, you know, and I know
but you've made the decision to let go,
for once and forever...
Now, we shall make this clear...
So we meet up,
and you were acting so difficult...
but you called up in the night
and here we are...
Sitting side-by-side, in you car, just like we used to
but now, it's a totally different situation, different feelings
Honestly, when I entered your car, looking at you, my heart was shouting so loud:
'Oh shit!! I missed this guy so much!!'
and I was to break down...
but I know I can't
so I didn't
then we were there talking
started up with asking about your uni application things
and I can see you were crapping
crapping from uni application to your results to your family
and then telling me:
'Sincerely, I don't have the mood to text msg these days, so sometimes I just don't reply msg.'
Oh for goodness sake, stop bullshitting!!
your msg alert have been ringing for a few times that night itself!!
So,
after you've finished crapping
I just go:
'Why did you break up with me?'
and I was pretty sure, I can predict your reaction and answer
as how much I've known you
so....
the same answer
same explanation
you can't even look in my eyes while you were talking to me....
haiz.........sigh
and for real,
I know,
there were girl after you
its the sense we girls have
that is actually unexplainable
but you said there were THREE girls!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!
yes, I'm using burglar words....
and I asked to know the girls name
you refused to tell right??
how bout I tell u
it was her, yes, my friend
that slut!!
again,
WHAT THE FUCK!!
I was so pissed off
so pissed off
no need much explanation
you did it without looking in my eyes
what were you trying to hide??
huh??
don't you have the guts to even look in my eyes??
huh?? my ex-Darlin??
and so,
before I leave
I wish you the very best of luck
on your life and everything awaiting in the future
I hugged you, yes I did
and I turned around, HIT YOU HARD on your left chest
yes I did
I just wanna tell you
'so, you know this is pain!!''
This two weeks of holidays were not supposed to happen like this
You yourself know, how much have I been longed for this two weeks to come
and how much plan have I been working on for these
But then,
you still let go and ended it all
leaving me all alone
miserable and confused
everything straggled up
for how many tears and sadness and mourning I've gone through
I meet you up tonight, with ONE purpose
to make things straight, to make things clear
once and for all
and just like you tell me
life has many chapter
and yes, you were one of the chapters in my life
Chapter One of my romance life
Chapter One that will ends tonight
I'm gonna shut the door behind
keeping our memories behind
keeping the times we had behind
shut the door close
and enter the next door
God knows what is behind the door
but for my own sake
I'm gonna try my best to enter it
with a whole new feeling a whole new smile
I know its hard
real hard
but it has got to be
so
there it goes
End Of Chapter One
Shall we just be friends from now on....
Just like you say,
One who understand you and one who understand me...
sometimes,
fairy tales don't end with a happy endings...
but they say,
All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time...
who knows,
this might be true...
true or not,
we shall just stop and stare..
nop,
proceed and stare...
fairy tales don't end with a happy endings...
but they say,
All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time...
who knows,
this might be true...
true or not,
we shall just stop and stare..
nop,
proceed and stare...
WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 20, 2008
You know,
sometimes, when you fell asleep,
you dreamed your heaven and those dreams helped to form it.
You know,
sometimes, when you fell asleep,
you dreamed your heaven and those dreams helped to form it.
I actually dreamed about you before...
You remember??
There was once,
when i dreamed about you in the night,
dreamed about you hugging me real tight in your arms...
and it felt so real
and i smile, when i was awake...
and i told you about that,
and you told me, you dreamed about me too, that night
you dreamed that you were hugging me by the beach, and in the car....
You remember??
There was once,
when i dreamed about you in the night,
dreamed about you hugging me real tight in your arms...
and it felt so real
and i smile, when i was awake...
and i told you about that,
and you told me, you dreamed about me too, that night
you dreamed that you were hugging me by the beach, and in the car....
But there was no reason for such dreams now...
cause i'm always crying my way to my dreams...
I want back my life,
when I used to laugh my way through everything.
Easy and hard.
It was never a problem.
But now,
I think I really deserve to smile, from heart.
cause i'm always crying my way to my dreams...
I want back my life,
when I used to laugh my way through everything.
Easy and hard.
It was never a problem.
But now,
I think I really deserve to smile, from heart.
27th day it is.... and i've been missing you from my dreams for such long time
TUESDAY, AUGUST 19, 2008
It's like now,
when things get wrong for such a long time.
I felt weaker and weaker.
Deep inside me,
I know this is got to come to an end.
Is it me?
who is not ready to let go?
Or there's something else?
I really really want to stop this mourning and moody feelings.
And I hate it when I lost control...
and ended up with tears.
when things get wrong for such a long time.
I felt weaker and weaker.
Deep inside me,
I know this is got to come to an end.
Is it me?
who is not ready to let go?
Or there's something else?
I really really want to stop this mourning and moody feelings.
And I hate it when I lost control...
and ended up with tears.
26th days we were no longer together...
the feelings of missing you gets stronger and stronger
it IS killing me...
the feelings of missing you gets stronger and stronger
it IS killing me...
Sunday, August 17, 2008
MONDAY, AUGUST 18, 2008
Learn this
from [The Five People You Meet In Heaven]
Holding anger is a poison,
It eats you from inside.
We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us.
But hatred is a curved blade.
And the harm we do,
we do to ourselves.
Holding anger is a poison,
It eats you from inside.
We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us.
But hatred is a curved blade.
And the harm we do,
we do to ourselves.
But dearly, I loved you, and I hate myself for cannot even find a reason to hate you back.
For how much I loved you, I hate myself as much.
For how much I loved you, I hate myself as much.
SUNDAY, AUGUST 17, 2008
I'm feeling really awful today.
For a week has passed.
You did ask me out, I know.
And since, I had not heard from you.
You should have start working
So, how's work??
Had it been keeping you so busy??
One week has passed be;
I can hardly feel my heart.
I'm feeling really awful today.
For a week has passed.
You did ask me out, I know.
And truthfully, I can't wait to meet you.
But somehow, I just can't.And since, I had not heard from you.
You should have start working
So, how's work??
Had it been keeping you so busy??
I've just got 6 days left.
My heart urges me to get things right between us.
And its making me panic, and nervous, and lost.....
If I don't meet up with you, it'll be after a month then.
My heart urges me to get things right between us.
And its making me panic, and nervous, and lost.....
If I don't meet up with you, it'll be after a month then.
One week has passed be;
I can hardly feel my heart.
What am i doing??
I have no idea.
What was i feeling??
I don't know.
Who I wanna see the most??
You.
the 24th day...
and i wish to have another 24 hours with you
I have no idea.
What was i feeling??
I don't know.
Who I wanna see the most??
You.
And I miss you so much.
and i wish to have another 24 hours with you
WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 13, 2008
For the bitter and the sweet...
Can my heart turns numb;
Shall it touches ice with no moist,
feels wind with no cold;
Can my heart just stop beating;
Shall my feelings just fade,
like how yours does.
Can anyone just let my heart rest,
let numb takes over;
and shall it eventually,
...rest in peace...
Can my heart turns numb;
Shall it touches ice with no moist,
feels wind with no cold;
Can my heart just stop beating;
Shall my feelings just fade,
like how yours does.
Can anyone just let my heart rest,
let numb takes over;
and shall it eventually,
...rest in peace...
it has been 20 days...
12th Of The Month
TUESDAY, AUGUST 12, 2008
Finally, I met up with Pat and Elaine.
It could have been fate, for,
three of us, Capri;
three of us, had know each other for years;
three of us, seems to have gone through the same heartbreaking incident;
three of us, sitting by the beach, wondering:
why is this happening to me??
12th of the month,
12th of May, i left Penang for Melacca
12th of August, i left Melacca, back to Penang
where are you??
Frankly,
I wanna cry out all my tears in front of Elaine tonight
when she leans her head against mine,
I felt like I can't hold my tears anymore.
But then,
I still kept it inside.
Perhaps,
the elder shouldn't collapse in front of the young.
Perhaps that is what stopping me from crying...
I just wanna hug someone and cry a river
It could have been fate, for,
three of us, Capri;
three of us, had know each other for years;
three of us, seems to have gone through the same heartbreaking incident;
three of us, sitting by the beach, wondering:
why is this happening to me??
12th of the month,
12th of May, i left Penang for Melacca
12th of August, i left Melacca, back to Penang
where are you??
Frankly,
I wanna cry out all my tears in front of Elaine tonight
when she leans her head against mine,
I felt like I can't hold my tears anymore.
But then,
I still kept it inside.
Perhaps,
the elder shouldn't collapse in front of the young.
Perhaps that is what stopping me from crying...
I just wanna hug someone and cry a river
Sunday, August 10, 2008
pathetic
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Smile vs Tears
SUNDAY, AUGUST 10, 2008
i went to PC Fair today
actually i have nothing to buy
my only intension is just to see you
from far
from a distant
from a place chaos with crowds
so you will never know my existence
so you will never realize i'm there
so i can just look at you from far
but i saw Kent right after i step in the entrance
he saw me as well
i hope he don't tell you i was there
i realize
you are still breath-taking to me
you still make my heart beats
when i thought it's already dead
i went to PC Fair today
actually i have nothing to buy
my only intension is just to see you
from far
from a distant
from a place chaos with crowds
so you will never know my existence
so you will never realize i'm there
so i can just look at you from far
but i saw Kent right after i step in the entrance
he saw me as well
i hope he don't tell you i was there
i realize
you are still breath-taking to me
you still make my heart beats
when i thought it's already dead
the last time i was in PC Pair
you was also working in PC Fair
we were in PC Fair
yet i did the same thing last time
i went
n i text msg you: Is my darlin wearing black today?
you replied: yupxie! you saw your darling XD
we were in PC Fair
yet i did the same thing last time
i went
n i text msg you: Is my darlin wearing black today?
you replied: yupxie! you saw your darling XD
same place
same person
totally different feelings
smile vs tears
same person
totally different feelings
smile vs tears
FRIDAY, AUGUST 8, 2008
15th day we are no longer together
2008.08.08
the day i've long for it to arrive
this is the day my mid-semester break starts
this is the day i'll get on the bus, way up North to Penang, back into your arms
this is the day i thought i can tell you how much i miss you
this is the day i thought when i see you again i can hug you as tight as i want
this is the day i thought i can cry as much as i want in your arms
but now
it's all the other way round
everything changed
i remembered last time i came back
it was the day you were going to depart to Singapore
and it was the day i'm coming back for a short 3 days break
还记得那天我们有多兴奋
一路上你的短讯不断
问我到了哪里
叫我不要赶巴士
安全最重要
还记得
突然巴士抛锚
可是我都不敢跟你说
自己在担心赶不上你登机的时间
还记得
到AutoCity那时候
你的短讯是这么写的：I'm so happy you've arrive!
还记得
一到槟城 是Bear来载我到机场
也记得你吩咐他不要开快车
可是我却拜托他飞车把我送到机场
记得他说：‘Aiyo...这么紧张要看 'lou gong' 啊~~’
and finally
i did catch up with you before you depart
that time
how i wish i can ask you to stay
to spend the time with me in Penang
although its only for 3 short days
but i know i can't
i cannot be so selfish
you've planned to go for holiday with your family
its just that it crashed with the days i'm back
so..... i just kept quiet
but how i never think of
that is the day
the day you hug me for the very last time
the day you kiss me for the very last time
i've never thought that
that is actually eventually become our good-bye kiss
and i never wanna say Good Bye
never...
2008.08.08
the day i've long for it to arrive
this is the day my mid-semester break starts
this is the day i'll get on the bus, way up North to Penang, back into your arms
this is the day i thought i can tell you how much i miss you
this is the day i thought when i see you again i can hug you as tight as i want
this is the day i thought i can cry as much as i want in your arms
but now
it's all the other way round
everything changed
i remembered last time i came back
it was the day you were going to depart to Singapore
and it was the day i'm coming back for a short 3 days break
还记得那天我们有多兴奋
一路上你的短讯不断
问我到了哪里
叫我不要赶巴士
安全最重要
还记得
突然巴士抛锚
可是我都不敢跟你说
自己在担心赶不上你登机的时间
还记得
到AutoCity那时候
你的短讯是这么写的：I'm so happy you've arrive!
还记得
一到槟城 是Bear来载我到机场
也记得你吩咐他不要开快车
可是我却拜托他飞车把我送到机场
记得他说：‘Aiyo...这么紧张要看 'lou gong' 啊~~’
and finally
i did catch up with you before you depart
that time
how i wish i can ask you to stay
to spend the time with me in Penang
although its only for 3 short days
but i know i can't
i cannot be so selfish
you've planned to go for holiday with your family
its just that it crashed with the days i'm back
so..... i just kept quiet
but how i never think of
that is the day
the day you hug me for the very last time
the day you kiss me for the very last time
i've never thought that
that is actually eventually become our good-bye kiss
and i never wanna say Good Bye
never...
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
7 days
it has been one week
gosh...
this is what's happening to me recently
every morning
i open my eyes
the first thing that came across my mind is:
what changes you so drastically??
i tried
i tried to fight this thoughts
i tried
i tried to keep myself occupy
i tried to keep myself busy
so i wont have time and space to think of you
but
everything reminds me of you
yes..... EVERYTHING
and this morning
early morning
i woke up around 4 something in the early morning
and i cant sleep back
i sit on the chair
in a dark room where i cant even see my own shadow
sitting there alone
starring at the wall
and then
i think of you again.............
it has been one week
gosh...
this is what's happening to me recently
every morning
i open my eyes
the first thing that came across my mind is:
what changes you so drastically??
i tried
i tried to fight this thoughts
i tried
i tried to keep myself occupy
i tried to keep myself busy
so i wont have time and space to think of you
but
everything reminds me of you
yes..... EVERYTHING
and this morning
early morning
i woke up around 4 something in the early morning
and i cant sleep back
i sit on the chair
in a dark room where i cant even see my own shadow
sitting there alone
starring at the wall
and then
i think of you again.............
i hate this feelings ... it makes me feel like collapsing
sixth day i missed you
today
i decided not to send you 'Good Morning' as usual as i always wake up before you do
i'm just wondering
when will you approach first??
what will you text me??
i'm just wondering
will you freak out like you used to??
when you cant find me through phone
when i dint text you in the morning
or when i reply you message late
so
i was wondering
and i waited and waited
the clock strikes 12
12 in the mid-night
end of the day
and i've never heard from you
not a word
dear darlin,
you asked for my friends number before
you said
IF something happened to me
at least you can reach for help
dear darlin,
i guess
IF i happened to die here
i guess you wont even notice now
i'm sad.......................
today
i decided not to send you 'Good Morning' as usual as i always wake up before you do
i'm just wondering
when will you approach first??
what will you text me??
i'm just wondering
will you freak out like you used to??
when you cant find me through phone
when i dint text you in the morning
or when i reply you message late
so
i was wondering
and i waited and waited
the clock strikes 12
12 in the mid-night
end of the day
and i've never heard from you
not a word
dear darlin,
you asked for my friends number before
you said
IF something happened to me
at least you can reach for help
dear darlin,
i guess
IF i happened to die here
i guess you wont even notice now
i'm sad.......................
hate myself for missing you ...
Monday, July 28, 2008
Starry Night
Fifth day i lost you
i was walking to the water shop blocks away to buy drinking water
还记得那个时候都会有你在电话的令一头陪着我
还会叫我下次早点出门 太晚了 危险
今晚的自己 看着地上一个人的影子
好讽刺 好孤单
starring up to the dark blue sky
it was rather a starry night
and the thought of i've never got the chance to spend the night enjoying a starry night view with you come across my mind
is it still possible to do so??
remember the drawing i gave you the night before i leave??
the "Starry Night" ...??
and you asked me: how long did i use to complete the art work
and i remember, you call it a masterpiece
well then...............
"do think of me every starry night...
love, grace"
i was walking to the water shop blocks away to buy drinking water
还记得那个时候都会有你在电话的令一头陪着我
还会叫我下次早点出门 太晚了 危险
今晚的自己 看着地上一个人的影子
好讽刺 好孤单
starring up to the dark blue sky
it was rather a starry night
and the thought of i've never got the chance to spend the night enjoying a starry night view with you come across my mind
is it still possible to do so??
remember the drawing i gave you the night before i leave??
the "Starry Night" ...??
and you asked me: how long did i use to complete the art work
and i remember, you call it a masterpiece
well then...............
"do think of me every starry night...
love, grace"
Sunday, July 27, 2008
永远的第一天
失恋的第四天
闭上眼睛
静静地听着这首歌
一首远距离恋爱的歌曲
好感动 感动到让人流泪
曾经何时
也想过我会有这么一天
三年后的那一天
天啊
是我太执着吗？？
一时之间
我该怎么放下
该怎么忘记
闭上眼睛
静静地听着这首歌
一首远距离恋爱的歌曲
好感动 感动到让人流泪
曾经何时
也想过我会有这么一天
三年后的那一天
天啊
是我太执着吗？？
一时之间
我该怎么放下
该怎么忘记
深夜 機場冷清好安靜 我終於看見了妳
穿著風衣 提著行李 聽著CD 走來走去
回憶 傳進心裡全是妳 我走過去抱緊妳
妳的聲音 妳的笑容 妳的淚滴 回到我懷裡
妳答應我 今天飛來 帶著你遲來的真愛
就飛過大海 帶愛情回來
今天看見永遠的第一天 終於實現我和妳的諾言
時間將一切拉遠 愛在心裡沒有改變
今天看見愛飛過地平線 當我說完我對妳的誓言
這是另一個起點 我一定愛妳到永遠
回憶 傳進心裡全是妳 我走過去抱緊妳
妳的聲音 妳的笑容 妳的淚滴 回到我懷裡
妳答應我 今天飛來 我要在這一秒鐘說
I Love I Love I Love You 說永遠不分開
今天看見永遠的第一天 終於實現我和妳的諾言
時間將一切拉遠 愛在心裡沒有改變
今天看見 愛的第一天
今天看見永遠的第一天 終於實現我和妳的諾言
時間將一切拉遠 愛在心裡沒有改變
今天看見愛飛過地平線 當我說完我對妳的誓言
這是另一個起點 我一定愛妳到永遠 到永遠
穿著風衣 提著行李 聽著CD 走來走去
回憶 傳進心裡全是妳 我走過去抱緊妳
妳的聲音 妳的笑容 妳的淚滴 回到我懷裡
妳答應我 今天飛來 帶著你遲來的真愛
就飛過大海 帶愛情回來
今天看見永遠的第一天 終於實現我和妳的諾言
時間將一切拉遠 愛在心裡沒有改變
今天看見愛飛過地平線 當我說完我對妳的誓言
這是另一個起點 我一定愛妳到永遠
回憶 傳進心裡全是妳 我走過去抱緊妳
妳的聲音 妳的笑容 妳的淚滴 回到我懷裡
妳答應我 今天飛來 我要在這一秒鐘說
I Love I Love I Love You 說永遠不分開
今天看見永遠的第一天 終於實現我和妳的諾言
時間將一切拉遠 愛在心裡沒有改變
今天看見 愛的第一天
今天看見永遠的第一天 終於實現我和妳的諾言
時間將一切拉遠 愛在心裡沒有改變
今天看見愛飛過地平線 當我說完我對妳的誓言
這是另一個起點 我一定愛妳到永遠 到永遠
我想
你永远都不会知道
我是这么想的
missing someone i knew so well ... but felt so strange
你永远都不会知道
我是这么想的
missing someone i knew so well ... but felt so strange
还可能吗？
2008年07月26日
失恋的第三天
我第四次来到马六甲鸡场街
我第四回在想
哪一天可以跟你紧紧手牵着手
从街头逛到街尾
you said before
after you greaduate
you can come to find me in Melacca when i cant go back to Penang often
you remember??
you tell me that day
that after you greaduate
we can go shopping in Singapore together
and we can ask Maya to give us trip guide there
ask Bear to come along
you remember??
you knew
i've longed to go to Genting again
and you say
you shall accompany me go up there
you remember??
还可能吗？？
失恋的第三天
我第四次来到马六甲鸡场街
我第四回在想
哪一天可以跟你紧紧手牵着手
从街头逛到街尾
you said before
after you greaduate
you can come to find me in Melacca when i cant go back to Penang often
you remember??
you tell me that day
that after you greaduate
we can go shopping in Singapore together
and we can ask Maya to give us trip guide there
ask Bear to come along
you remember??
you knew
i've longed to go to Genting again
and you say
you shall accompany me go up there
you remember??
还可能吗？？
this feeling of missing you ... but there's nothing i can do
Thursday, July 24, 2008
2008年07月25日 雨
2008年07月25日 雨
失恋的第二天
凌晨三点我洗了个澡 漫无目的的在徘徊 剩下的我还有什么可以做？？
Then I decided to listen to some music
I reach for my mp3
Its [Forevermore] playing……………..
This is the song we listen to the most in your car
We used to sit inside the car, hugging each other, lying in your arms quietly and just listening to this song
So simple but yet so sweet
I miss that time so much
Your temperature, your hug, your kisses, your car scent…….
What else is left in me…..??
I have to suddenly cut off all my feelings just because you call it off that you cannot stand the miserable feeling because we’re far apart from each other…….
I’m sorry
I really am…………..
Sorry for dragging you in this
Sorry for leaving before you do
I’m sorry I can’t be there to celebrate your birthday with you as your girlfriend
I wish I can
I really do
How I wish I can spend the whole day with my boyfriend during his birthday
Giving him a very special birthday kiss
But have you ever realize
I’m not beside you
But I’m always with you
You are always in my heart
And you’ll always have me
And you’ve never lost me
I’m sorry I can’t be with you when you’re having pressure
I’m sorry I can’t hold your hands tight
I’m sorry I can’t hug you warm
I’m sorry I can’t give you comfort when you need it the most
What I can do is just call up to talk to you
For you to release the tends
And sending you messages to keep you up
You remember??
I’m sorry
I never wish to come here………….never
But what else can I do??
I give up this, I give up my studies
I take this, I lost you
I was having dilemma for doing this decision
But truly from my heart, I really hope you can hang on, don’t give up holding this hand tight
I used to think that
As I’m miles away
The only think I can do is talking to you online
At least I can speak to you face to face
And can see you when I miss you
And you can always call up on me
What I’ve ask for is just a call to talk before I sleep at night
Listening to your voice can do beyond than comfort me
I’ve encounter so much capalang things here
And yet I don’t like being away from you and come to this bloody hell alone
But yet,
The day I’m most afraid of approach as well
…………………………………….
How I wish I can stop you from leaving
But I don’t know how
How I wish I can stop you from giving up
But there’s no point for me to keep holding on for this
when you’ve already given up
不用担心
我不会为了把你留下来而故意表现得脆弱
没错
自从和你在一起
你似乎成为我脆弱的理由
可是
你可能不知道你简简单单的一句话足以让我开怀一整天
有你的安慰 我不再流泪
有你的体温 我有被保护的感觉
有你的肩膀 我有个依靠
有你的日子是如此的完美
在一起的时光曾几何时是如此幸福快乐
被你牵着的感觉我永远不会忘记
我想念你
可是
我能够做些什么？？
what’s left on me??
What you said that night:
‘ i guess losing me is nothing to you also lar...’
Hurts me badly
i hate myself ... for i miss you
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