sixth day i missed you

today
i decided not to send you 'Good Morning' as usual as i always wake up before you do

i'm just wondering
when will you approach first??
what will you text me??

i'm just wondering
will you freak out like you used to??
when you cant find me through phone
when i dint text you in the morning
or when i reply you message late

so
i was wondering
and i waited and waited

the clock strikes 12
12 in the mid-night
end of the day

and i've never heard from you
not a word

dear darlin,
you asked for my friends number before
you said
IF something happened to me
at least you can reach for help

dear darlin,
i guess
IF i happened to die here
i guess you wont even notice now

i'm sad.......................

hate myself for missing you ...