我失恋了。。。

2008年07月24日

我 失 恋 了 。 。 。


一首首听惯的情歌
一幕幕往事的回忆

痛彻心扉的感觉

以往的温柔不再
以往的安慰不再

留下来的是被逼斩断的爱意
还没准备好的心情
不想放弃的意愿
来不及挽回的情感
我可以向谁述说

i hate myself for loving you so much
i cant even find a reason to hate you back......

this is not how i actually imagine us to be

since we were together
i'm no longer who i am
i'm a total stranger to myself
i used to laugh my way through chaos in my life
i used to make my own way through difficulties
i used to live alone in darkness, in loneliness withot fear

i am now weaker then i thought i would be

i hate myself for starring at the phone waiting for your message
i hate myself for holding on the phone whole night waiting your contact ringtone to play
i hate myself for being weak
i hate myself when i cry alone in the night because i've missed you so much
i hate myself for distracted from wat i'm supposed to do



and now......
there's nothing i can do anymore

it has always been you who're talking and giving decision

how much i wanna share with you about my life here
how much i cherished what we had together
how much i missed you one day and the other

now that i have a conclusion;
guys will always say:
I'm sorry, it has been so long i never see you, never feel you, never touch you....my feelings fade....
girls are naif enough to say:
I miss you more and more each and everyday

i hate myself...for i miss you